Pictured: Phindy Mshudulu

02 December 2019 | 12H17

Yho what a hectic week, what a night I had! Everything that’s been happening around me is a bit much to bear. Being an adult is challenging however I take comfort in knowing that surely I’m not the only one experiencing what I currently am. The pressure of being a great mother to our children; a loyal wife to my husband; a loving sibling to my sisters; a responsible daughter-in-law; and an active member of my community – it’s a bit much honestly. I feel I’ve somewhat been caught in a whirlwind of trying to put everyone first. Most practically, I feel I have a big chocolate cake in front of me and I have to distribute it equally to everyone around me however everyone who gets a slice feels theirs is not big enough – this is how I feel. I’m trying to balance this equation of life but somehow my efforts are amounting to nothing. I don’t know if this is an accurate account of what is happening but this is how I feel.

I pray God may give me the strength to be the person He wants me to be, to do not my will but He’s. What this portion of Scripture means is that no matter how painful our ailments, as long as it’s God’s will – it’s okay, we are in the right direction. Imagine being in a stressful situation that’s not even God’s will – that would only leave you vulnerable without God’s protection but even when we disobey Him, because of the loving Father that He is, He still protects us and makes sure that the sun does not scorch us.

This week, I pray that God may be my strength because I need Him now more than ever before, I feel disjointed and I need God to carry me and lift this burden off my shoulders. I feel like I’m the “to whom much is given much is required” type. I feel like I’m going through what I am because God has big plans through me that will impact so many people and I need to find my inner strength and live by what God says about me regardless of what others may think. I know I’m not the only one feeling this way and that many might feel like this regularly. If you’re one of them, let’s pray – prayer changes things:


Lord Jesus my Saviour and King of my heart, I surrender to You today. I die to myself and allow Your will to overtake mine. Let Your will be done on earth as it is in Heaven in my life, my children’s lives, my family’s lives, and the lives of the entire nation. Be my Lord, save me, and carry me through this day. I smother your power all over me that I may arise and be the child and leader that you’ve created me to be. I thank You for Your lovingkindness in Jesus’ Mighty Name, Amen and Amen.

Now if you are one of the “to whom much is given, much is required” type, you better go out there and let your light shine. Don’t let other people dim your light, God wants you to shine bright. Own your purpose, own your identity, and live unapologetically starting right now, go!

Written by: Phindy Mshudulu
Inspired by: Luke 22:42
“Father, if you are willing, please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.”
Song: Nqubeko Mbatha – Heal Our Land

**“to whom much is given, much is required” is a verse in the Bible (Luke 12:48) which suggests that the more God blesses you, the more He expects of you **


Lots of Love, Phindy